I was about to change my current mood... the one I had changed like.. 5 mintues ago... and I decided it has no point... to sume it up... its been like this..
In the past 15 minutes I passed from being Incredibly happy... to worried... to sad.. to embarrased... to depressed... to confused... to excited... to "giddy"... to confused once again..to happy and hopefull..to disappointed and, finally, landed on depressed. we'll see how long it lasts...

I guess i missed 5 or 6 that lasted about 20 to 30 seconds each.. but I guess my memory can't possibly remember all of that.

··Is it worth it?··

Finally you've got a reason to live...
To get even... By hurting the only one who hasn't turned it's back on you...
It's finally your turn to hurt...
Only this once, it's not you the one who's in pain...
Finally you turned the rolls...
But... How does it feel?
Do you feel fulfilled?... Is it really what you need?
Maybe you are only causing more harm...

You will, eventually, be alone again...

IS IT WORTH IT?
this time not only your heart will be broken... you're breaking an innocent heart as well.

·Maybe·

So... it's finally back....

Maybe the sun will shine again...
Just maybe...

Maybe we'll finally grow up...
But...Just maybe...

Maybe you'll finally realize...
But...Just maybe...

Maybe we'll finally care...
But...Just maybe...

Maybe it'll finally matter...
But still, just maybe...

Maybe everything'll be alright...
Maybe it'll stay alright...

But....unfortunately.... just maybe.

·--Contrast--·

He suddenly looked out the window... he couldn't avoid the desire to jump
It was one of the most beautifull night skys he had ever seen... stars everywhere... the moon so round...
But still, in the depths of his heart, he could't endure the beauty of the sky...
Far away he could hear the desperate scream of a child... the cry of a mother... and the unhopefull silence of a father...
He looked towards the pavement... picturing himself falling down to it...
He felt like a clown...he felt like a mime... he suddently felt like nothing...

For one sole second, he felt hopefull... for only one sole second.

'Why is it that at end someone always has to die?', he wondered, 'Why do they need this to apreciate the value of their own lives?'

What was life worth if we avoided living it? ... he thought when he found himself facing the pavement so closely...

·····

We have, unfortunately, met with a fork on the road
It is now when we must take courage and make a decision that might change us and our lives forever.
It's when you are given the chance to decide on what course you destiny is going to take,
It is when you have the power over your life...
This is the moment where your character is supposed to be proven
But this is also when, unfortunately, people prove to be total assholes...
People without character, brains, eyes, even hearts....

I can't beleive this is happening... It's SOO not what I expected...
My heart lays broken on the floor...
On the same floor you were standing when you chose to change our lives forever... to change me and my perspective on life, love, people... forever

No doubt it's never going to be the same... the only thing I might get from my hate... is proof of how much I really loved you... and of how much i'll regret it for at least... a long time of my life.

···Even more colors···

Every color is fading....
There's nothing left of the bright red that once filled the space...
EVERYTHING is fading... Maybe it's the sun... the light... the truth...
but not one color is the one it used to be...

I guess everything is bound to fade... to change... to die...

The glittering colors of a rainbow are now only a part of a memory... a
memory that's fading...
That's fading to the point of not knowing if really it had ever happened...
Maybe it was just an illusion... an illusion that prevented us from seeing
the real, sad, and even depressing grey of the sky...

The reflection of a wish... upon the lies...